When I was little I wanted to be a writer...or a ballerina. I couldn't quite decide. I had all these dreams and hopes and it seemed like I could do anything I wanted. People actually told me that --You can do anything you set your mind to. Aside from the horrible sentence structure, it seemed like a nice sentiment.

Unfortunately, it's a lie. You can't do anything you want. You are so very very limited. But no one will ever tell you that until you try to do something outside your limits. You may make it all the way through high school and college, still thinking that you can do anything. Still duped.

In the last year I have finally learned my lesson that I am tragically limited. I have a college degree, but I can't get any job that would put it to use. I'm artistic, but I can't sell a damn painting in a gallery. I love to write, but I will never get a book deal, never publish a story, and I'll certainly never be called a writer. At this very moment, I'm sitting on a cold recieving dock, wasting my brain away while knitting (garter stitch for those of you who think I might be enjoying myself) and drinking a diet coke to keep myself from sliding into a coma. I am so limited.

I think if I stop trying I may be less disappointed with myself.

On a funny note, I have a coworker who hates everything and everyone. Any opinion you might remark on will be instantly disagreed with by this lady. She is angry and hateful. One of my other coworkers thinks it is because she never played organized sports as a child. According to him, women who do not participate in organized sports do not understand teamwork and are always trying to assert themselves in inappropriate ways. I didn't have the heart to tell him that a)I never played organized sports, or b) I think his theory is absolute crap.

Enjoy the post, Tracy!